My Journey to Paradise: Why I became an Atheist

As I was seeking for answers and looking for truths regarding life, I was disappointed and dismayed when I learned that some ‘truths’ are only illusions. I learned that each and every one of us has his/her own ‘truths’ which, if anyone dares to argue with, it would be a long and tiring argument for sure.

So let me tell you my story on why I became an atheist. This is my JOURNEY TO PARADISE.

I was born in a Christian family, in an environment among what they call the ‘righteous’ and the ‘chosen ones’. But I am an individual, unique, and I have my own thoughts to follow. I realized that I don’t have to follow my family’s traditions and beliefs.

For 12 years I was in a Catholic environment because my family is a devotee of Catholicism. But by the time I was able to understand this religion and belief thing, I started questioning every little detail on why people follow such traditions like the rituals done during Holy Week, the baptism of babies, the signing of the cross, the feast of the patron saints, etc., which are actually prohibited in the Bible, as far as I know.

But instead of answering my questions they just ignored me, so I started seeking for answers. A friend of mine in high school told me that if I wanted to seek for answers to my questions regarding religion and belief, I must read the Bible. And so I did. But instead of giving me answers it created more questions, until one day a neighbor came and preached about the gospel and the “Word of God” to me. She earnestly answered each and every question I had, and although I was a little skeptical of her answers, I accepted them. And because of my eagerness to really have the answers, I decided to become a born again Christian and to study more about the Word of God.

For two years I studied and adopted the beliefs of this sect I was in. I became “The Bible Man” in my family. Sometimes I argued with my mom with regards to what the Bible says about those who don’t follow what God had commanded. But that was until I realized that I was being a freak of this Jesus and his teachings.

I could no longer accept some of the lessons in science, sociology, and philosophy that I encountered in school because of this “have faith and never doubt” thing that I learned in the Bible. Fortunately, I realized I was being illogical and unreasonable at times. I realized that “truth is never told but realized”. And so I renounced my Christian faith and beliefs to grasp freethought for me to gain the real knowledge of life and the most logical and reasonable position that man can ever be.

Christianity had been my hindrance to progress and to knowing the reality and every answer to my questions. I may not know everything in life yet but what I know for sure is that there will be answers in the future. For everything here is explainable by science and logic – maybe not yet now but sooner or later we’ll have every answer that we longed to know and waited for so long. I may no longer be alive at that time, but I’m living right now for that future to come.

I no longer believe in any deity or supernatural things now that I have realized that it’s absurd to believe in such things that have no proofs of their existence. I live my life the way I want it, free from falsehood and absurdities.

But It doesn’t mean that I live a life of nothingness just because I don’t believe in a Sky-Daddy and didn’t follow what my family has taught me. I have my own thoughts and views regarding things, so no one can say I am a lifeless being. Every individual is as unique as his/her beliefs and so we can’t just say to anyone that he/she is wrong for what he/she believes, for we don’t know yet what is true.

And so if I say that God does not exist, you can’t say I am wrong just because you have things that “prove” your claim that God exists. No, God’s existence has been the long time argument of theists and atheists and yet no one has ever proven anything of it’s existence or non-existence. So I may be an agnostic as far as my position is concerned because I don’t know anything yet. But if God exists or not, I don’t care. At the least I know what I’m doing and what I’m supposed to do.

I am an Atheist. It has been one heck of a journey for me indeed. I may not have written all of it here, but this is the best thing that happened in my journey. And though my journey is not yet over, I’ll live for it now, to finish what I started, on this Journey to Paradise.

19 comments

  1. You speak of logic throughout your post but you committed a lot of falacies or so-called illogical statements (check ad hominem). I am an atheist too, actually raised as one by my parents but I don’t sepak of ill things against religions – calling them absurd etc. A freethinker knows for a fact that those beliefs, rituals, customs, practice, or whatever you want to call it have scientific explanation as far social science is.concerned. I may not believe with the Xtian gods ir.the Islamic deity but I wont deny them of respect that they deserve.

    Mind you, we are atheist and we dont preach a certsin gospel of non-belief in an effort to convince others and ourselves about our choice. You still have more things to learn.

  2. Guys

    Fascinating stories u got in here. I like your stories and point of views but I can't really figure it out how you ended up with such conclusion. A journey that started with faith and ended without one seems a tragic thing to happen.

    • I don't see anything tragic about somebody growing out of religious superstition, and becoming somebody more beholden to their own actions instead of relegating it as something their deity wills.

      If you're serious about figuring out why we feel we're better off without faith, you'd best ask us personally, instead of dispensing your unneeded pity.

      Only Mr. T can use that as a currency 😉

  3. @yudzin, got the same story, though i'm journeying at different path. i came from a catholic background, searched cults, religions and beliefs, i'd come to realized then that their's no right religion, no right tradition, practices or beliefs. But i realized though that they boiled up to one, a supernatural god that exist, and that a personal relationship with that god is the key to the questions and doubts i have in mind. the free will had set me free.
    i'm still building relationship with this god, thru thick and thin, good and bad times, 'till death will not be part.
    happy to know that your in a journey right now. i believed that its everyones responsibilty to find the truth.
    hope we and the others who are in a journey will find the truth.:)

  4. I'm glad you don't believe in God. Don't you know that all of my demons believe in him and even trembles. I am quite surprised that you don't believe in him. Anyway I'm happy that you are an atheist. So glad to meet you soon ! Hope you bring along some of your friends.

    • A perfect example of a Theist troll: Dead End web page, non-working email address, of course No name attached and failing to understand what Atheism means. Funny it is becoming a Christian Virtue to Lie for Christianity. Lie more please it really Builds your case 😀

  5. The best way to become an Atheist is to read the bible.

    Congratulations on your deconversion, fellow Heathen. 🙂

    I like the Bible–it would be a great book if it didn't have blood, gore, sodomy, rape, incest, beastiality, and people stoning other people for working on the Sabbath.

    It's too bad that the Catholic church decided to cherry-pick their Bible passages…

  6. yes 😀 igme
    democratic family hehe
    we don't have any rules to follow.
    my mom doesn't imposed any rules on who to marry, or what religion he's in. as long as were happy. 😀

  7. now i know why you became an atheists. as for me if we try to think of the truth we have to consider a lot of things before we can really tell or know the truth. in philososphy class i learned that MAN is a unique being, can think freely and can decide for his own.
    maybe it's not all about believing but it is all about faith. my mother is islam my father is roman catholic in religion, in our house we are democratic. for me whatever religion you re in to there is only one God. be it Allah or Jesus. 😀

  8. We almost have the same story…I became agnostic at grade six when I discovered science. I been thouighbeing born again twice in the Phiklippines and once in the USA..same BS,nothing that suffice my quench for the "truth:.Everything was a fallacy. a delusion, mostly delusion of grandeurf being "saved by Jesus". The attitude of the Pinoys who are born again, is somewhat arrogant but really ignorant because they believe that they are the chosen few..another delusion of grandeur if you will.
    Now I am born against, a full-pledged atheist since that doomsday in New York city in 2001, (911). Why? Something like this should not have happened, if there were a god..upon close examination and research, it happened because of clash of two religions..one wants to prove who has the better god..isn't that stupid and absurd?
    I am happier and more successful now. I could feel that i was freed from a lot of delusions.
    I believe in myself..I depend on myself anyhow for everything since grade six..much more now.. I have no "big brother" to protect me from above…I have myself to deal with..I take responsibility for anything I do.. I have metamorphosed to somebody whom I really like.. I am finally the real me.

  9. Our dignity as human beings is founded on our ability to make decisions and principles for ourselves. In order to do so, we must have free will. Free will implies a free intellect, unconstrained by whatever. To throw off your free will by totally entrusting your mind to another authority is to surrender your dignity as a human being. It

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